Heart of the Matter

Have you chosen any theme song that you'd listen to when you broke up with your man/woman? Everyone has. Somehow most people would have a song or two that they can relate to.... that tells of the story of their love relationship. A song that acts as a reminder, or a nostalgic attachment. I chose Heart of the Matter by Don Henley. I've always loved this song for a long time, and it came to my head the moment she said those words.

Before i met her, it's bad enough that this song would bring tears in my eyes everytime I listen to it.... now it gets worse. The intro and the outro guitar riffs put a *thump* straight into my chest and my eyes will well up with tears........

Heart of the Matter - Don Henley, Eagles

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I know that it would come
An old true friends of ours was talkin on the phone
she said you've found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck
and the struggles we went through
how I lost me, and you lost you
What are all these voices outside love's open door
make us throw out our contentment
and beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
but I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew
I'm learning again
I've tryin to get down
to the heart of the matter
but my will gets weak
and my thoughts seems to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
forgiveness
even if, even if you don't love me anymore...

Ahh, these times are so uncertain
there's a yearning undefined
...people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They're the very thing we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us
it doesn't keep me warm...

I'm learning to live without you now
but I miss you baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out
I have to learn again
I've been tryin to get down
to the heart of the matter
but everything changes
and my friends seems to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
forgiveness
even if, even if you don't love me anymore...

There are people in your life, who've come and gone
They let you down , you know they hurt your pride
you better put it all behind you, babe
cos' life goes on
you keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside, baby...

I've been tryin to get down
to the heart of the matter
but my will gets weak
and my thoughts seems to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
forgiveness
even if, even if you don't love me ...

I've been tryin to get down
to the heart of the matter
but the flesh gets weak
and the ashes will scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
forgiveness
even if, even if you don't love me ...
anymore...

Olympics!!

Who's your favourite Olympic team??

Oh my, China is tougher than I had thought. Well, nearly every Olympic games , they have been cool. But watching them in the diving, air rifle and table tennis had reminded me how GOOD they were....

...oopps times up.... i gotta go..... maybe i continue later? :)

Filtering friends...

Sometimes after a break up many people tend to remember and start counting - how many friends do you really have. There's a way to determine which one is your closest friends.

For example:

When you tell your friends about your breakup with your boyfriend/girlfriend, do your friends:
1) remain silent, but feels sorry for you
2) feels really sorry for you, and has said it
3) tries to console you in any way possible, even though you didn't expect it
4) buys you a drink, takes you out for a dance/party
5) tells you to get over it and forget about him/her
6) tells you to get over it , and starts to brag about "this guy/chick i know in the office"
7) no reaction, but pats you on the shoulder gently, and smiles in consolation
8) no reaction at all




....well,....there are no standards or rules set on how one filter one's "true friends" from the garbage friends . It really depends on you. And what you expect from them, and them you.

Email problems!

Some of you may wonder what i do for a living..... well, i'm a IT system administrator. I administor IT systems. Hahaha.... well, not so funny anyway.

Well, I pretty much do the same thing as any SA would, we are managed hosting professionals Stronium. As much as I enjoyed the IT world, it came to me as an accident really.

The only thing that bothers me is the workload and tension. It's nothing I've ever experienced before when I was a draughtsperson. Ahh~~ life back then was easy. We are the living photocopy machine for civil engineers and architects. We visualize and "graphicalise" their (sometimes) stupid structures and concepts and when there's nothing to do, we hang out at the coffee shop for a drink downstairs. What a waste of life..... i've wasted almost 5 years of it. My initial idea was being an architect, but financial restrictions have led me to be a draughtsperson all my life. Don't get me wrong, I learned a lotta things along the way, but I don't see myself leading an easy life later.

Oh,.... on topic...... I hate customer-having-problem-with-sending-email problems!!! ....there... i hope i wasn't off track.

Confession...

Perhaps I should confess here..... the date of entries here are not accurate to the post times. I was just feeling that I should express myself in some way, when my short relationship with a girl ended. She is one special girl to me, and I'll tell you why later.

I'm in a middle of 'soul searching' for myself. I blame myself for the fall of this relationship. I see myself and her going further all the way,... but I guess it's not meant to be, not at this moment. I haven't given up yet. I should be, but I love her too much to let it go.....